Readings Readings Readings!

So we got a reading done by a  medium a couple of says ago and I have to say that was amazing.

She told me so many awesome things but the coolest thing she said was when we first sat down and she shock my hand, "You're cool." she blurted out and I just blushed. I'm not used to getting complements like that. I'm still used to being called dumb,stupid,silly, and not up lifting things. Even my bf is trying to get me used to being more confident. But she started out with that and went into how I really need to start believing in myself more that I have a lot more to give then what others think I have. I'm an amazing person who's been to hell and back and maybe be a little scared but I'm not running from a fight. She told me how I've been through many trials that even though they where painful they were needed to teach me about certain things like patience and friendship. She went on to more but I don't want to bore you with all that.

Not only did I learn a lot about myself but I gained some confidence back in myself that I didn't even realize I was lacking in. Maybe I did and I just ignored it. That's probably what happened but you know what? I'm a cool person and maybe you all don't believe me on my abilities but I do. And that's all I really need to. The medium may have been fake or what ever and maybe she read me off of what I was doing but I can tell you right now that it was a very spiritual experience to just be there. I had a lot of fun and just . It's hard to type how badly I didn't realize I needed that visit but I did. It's been a bit hard for me over the years with friendships that I lost but I'm getting better. Slowly, but getting there.

 I'm scared of people a little now and I like talking to the dead way more then the living for right now. I think it's because at least the dead won't hurt you as badly as the living can. That can come back and bit me in the ass later but for know I like where I am now. I still have a few friends from my past and that's really all I need. I'm not the kind of person who needs to be surrounded in a bunch of lies. I just need truth and I have to say what I feel. Even if it hurts I know a true friend will stay by my side. Like my friends River and Jay and Vsick and a couple more I didn't mention but they know who they are.

Either way I wanna say it's time to be true to myself. I can't keep a fake mask on to hide who I am anymore. It's time for me to be me. And wish Ash by my side I know I can achieve that. Though the dead are not as scary as the living are to me at least I'm trying to get over my fears one hurdle at a time.
Now I must go my dears I wanna try a new tarot spread I found! ;)
Cheshire.